Inner Demons

We all struggle with inner demons. If you say that you don’t, then you’re lying. OK, maybe I shouldn’t be so definitive, but that’s what I believe. It’s human. I certainly have my own – I’ve written about them (in songs and in posts) as you well know. But this song isn’t about me, not exactly. It was prompted by my witnessing someone having a panic attack – someone I know and love. I was helpless. What was going on was in this person’s head and not open to reason or rationalization.

I don’t have any special knowledge or insight in this area. I wonder why I’m writing about it at all. On the other hand, it’s human, as I just said. So we all know something, I guess. It turns out that I’ve written a number of songs that have something to do with inner turmoil or struggle or distress. Our album “Welcome to Storytown” has a song called Sad:

I've got to find some, find some relief
These days I lose my, lose my belief
That by meeting my demons head-on
I’ll find a reason to go on

After performing this live at our very first gig, a close friend who’s a psychologist said that I had captured depression perfectly. Maybe she was just being nice, but still…

I recently released a proper recording of another older song, Good News:

I look out from inside my head
Wondering if I am dead
Well it is alarming that
I can’t tell

There’s a song that the band has performed live but that I’ve never released, called Outcast:

And did you ever admit to desolation
And feelings of alienation
All with no explanation
Are you feeling outcast?

Where am I going with this? I DON’T KNOW. I mean, enough already! Maybe it doesn’t mean anything. Or maybe I think this post IS about me, to paraphrase Carly Simon. Maybe I can’t stop thinking and overthinking and worrying. It’s getting old.

Can you make it stop?
Can you make it stop?
Because it feels fantastic when it stops

Yes it does. Yes it does.

Next time, something different: POLITICS! And in the meantime, I’m just gonna chill. Oh, and thanks for listening.